Thinking never works without doing.

Alright, so I am not much of an artist. Let us just be honest about that. If I were more into what I do, it would probably be some pretty amazing stuff. (ego much?) Truth be told, I do not practice my art.
I sit. And I think about it instead. I think about what could be done, how it could be done. I write notes on what to do and how to do it. Ask myself questions in my writing about support, structure, significance. And then answer myself back on how to solve the problems.
Things are however, rarely executed.

It is among the many giant faults I have. I just think, not do. I have been THINKING about vector illustrations that deal with Grimm Fairytales. After actually reading the Alice in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass and What Alice Found there have been a bunch of illustration concepts for the Knight, the white queen, the red queen, the duchess.. so many characters that I never knew existed!
But it has been thoughts. And thumbnails.

Perhaps this is too much of a bitchy, bitch post. But really, the biggest question is: How do you sit down after planning everything and then go "Alright. Time to work on it." What makes you jump away from the planning stages?

In an attempt to figure this out, I went back to something that was for a school project last year. The ARR2009. IMHO, I fucked this magazine up hardcore. I did not care about it enough, was not dedicated to it enough and did not labor over it enough. But somehow through all of this crazy muck there was one thing that came out that I actually worked on and thought "This is a really neat concept."
Perhaps where it should fall under is 'great idea, poorly executed'. But whenever I look at it, it is just one of those things that makes me point at it and go. You know what? I did that shit. And it was fucking' awesome.
Of course in usual Jess fashion, I grabbed copies of all the native files. None of the fonts, and no outlined .pdf's so that I could.. you know. Actually PUT any of it into my portfolio. All I've got is a book. Battered and now slightly ruined by an over ambitious pup attempting to leap through the window to get to the neighborhood cat.

Anywho... the magazine is coming up again. I've enrolled in the class, but really hope someone else will take the helm as art director. I would love to just sit down and work on a purpose to all of these thumbnails. All of these untested designs. See most of them fail, but in a thousand failures, one would think probability would shine on one, right?